Tuesday 21 November 2017

Essay one : Why I live

 
 AT least once a day the question, 'why I live', hangs around in me.
The core reason is because I do not want to be swayed by random moments.
If a man has a sense of existence, he is in no danger of being lost.
I am fully familiar with how frustrating it is to be just taken by tides of fate in life.
That is what I have been through, and I will if I am not to be serious.
Above all, everyone has a motive reasonable and sensible to hold in order to keep going forward.

 EVERYDAY I fight against temptation. Few have I won against it. Little did I try. 
Regret has always been a constant. I felt helpless. I despised my inability to be serious.
I talked to myself that it was time to change, really. In the end, I rationalize my actions and convinced myself I would make a progress next time. 

 SO far, my fight was a complete defeat. Sometimes it seemed it cannot be defeated. I already told myself that I would change more than million times. Even at this time of moment I am writing this, temptation visits me.

 PERHAPS, the sense of my existence could be to find an answer to 'why i live'. Well, some says life is not destination but journey. I would like to believe this.

 There is one principle I hold and keep to myself. I must find a quiet mind. Following what my mind believe is right is the only way to have a quiet mind. It involves conscience, righteousness, and sensibility. So I will be persistent to be philosophical, righteous, and sensible.



Sunday 19 November 2017

"ASK ME", by William Stafford

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"Some time when the river is ice ask me mistakes I have made. 
Ask me whether what I have done is my life.  
Others have come in their slow way into my thought, 
and some have tried to help or to hurt: 
ask me what difference their strongest love or hate has made.

I will listen to what you say.
You and I can turn and look at the silent river and wait.
We know the current is there, hidden; 
and there are comings and goings from miles away
that hold the stillness exactly before us.
What the river says, that is what I say."

by William Stafford

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It is my favorite poem in English.

I don't remember when and how exactly it was known to me.

William Stafford was a prolific poet who wrote almost everyday.

It is said that one day some student asked him about the secret to be prolific,

and he said you can do it if you keep your standard low.

He seems a wise man to me.

I think one of my problems is I am obsessed with 'doing things well'.

Some could call it 'fear to failure', possibly; I agree.











Friday 10 November 2017

시조 : 침류대, 복사꽃 - 이수광


울 옆엔 맑은 시냇물,
그 위엔 누대가 서있고
대 앞에는 가득히 복사꽃이 만발했네.
꽃잎을 은밀하게 흐르는 물에 띄워보내지 말라.
어부가 찾아들까 염려되나니.

-이수광

Wednesday 8 November 2017

Personality - 30 adjectives which describe characteristics of a person.


ONE of the most difficult things to me is to describe my personality or other's.
I do not mean describing it itself is difficult.
Human mind is complex and complicated, 
so it is practically impossible to describe someone's personality without prejudice and fallacy.
People behave differently at different situations with different people each moment.

EVEN so, we need to do it because we are required to do so.
A novelist must be skilled at creating a character and the character's personality must be clear to the reader. Otherwise, no one would feel urged to read it. In a job interview, an interviewer usually asks our personality good and bad, which I think is a dumb question. But, we, interviewee, must know how to respond to this silly question. Also, we are frequently asked to describe someone from others. 

I would like to present some effective adjectives which describe people. They only contain positive implication. I made a website link of the original source at the end of the post. They have been useful to me. I hope the same for you.



1. adaptable



  • capable of fitting a particular situation or use
People who are adaptable can overcome change easily.

When Connie's parents divorced, she proved herself to be adaptable. It wasn't easy, but she learned how to cope with this big change.


2. adventurous
  • willing to undertake new and daring enterprises
People who are adventurous seek out the fun in life. They love to try something new--sometimes an act that others would find scary. Adventurous people love to travel and try new foods at a restaurant.

3. affectionate

  • having or displaying warmth or affection
If you like to snuggle up next to someone, then you are affectionate.

4. ambitious

  • having a strong desire for success or achievement
Ambitious people try to get ahead in life--they look for opportunities to better their life. For the most part, this has a positive feeling, but in some people, ambition is too strong and they hurt people along the way to get what they want.

5. amiable

  • diffusing warmth and friendliness
Amiable people are affable. They are kind, warm and friendly.

6. compassionate
  • showing or having sympathy for another's suffering
Someone who is compassionate feels a strong sense of sadness when they see others who are suffering. A compassionate person always tries to do something to help ease the suffering. You would find a compassionate person helping out in a homeless shelter.

7. considerate
  • showing concern for the rights and feelings of others
A considerate person looks out for other people. They often allow someone else to have the last piece of pie or they hold the door open for another person.


8. courageous
  • able to face and deal with danger or fear without flinching
A courageous person is brave. They are the type of person to run into a burning building. They are also likely to get involved to stop a bullying situation.

9. courteous

  • characterized by courtesy and gracious good manners
Courteous people say, "Please," "Thank you" and "No, thanks." Their manners are present because they are nice toward other people.

10. diligent
  • characterized by care and perseverance in carrying out tasks
Diligent people work hard until a job is done. They take great care in doing things right. They don't give up.

11. empathetic
  • showing ready comprehension of others' states
Someone who is empathetic is able to understand people better because they see things from the other person's perspective.

When it comes to working with children it is important to be empathetic. My daughters might be upset for a ridiculous reason, but I can only help them if I understand why they truly feel as they do.
12. exuberant
  • unrestrained, especially with regard to feelings
An exuberant person is full of joy and has a lot of energy to show it.

13. frank
  • characterized by directness in manner or speech
Someone who is frank "tells it like it is." It might not be pretty, but they will tell you straight.

14. generous
  • willing to give and share unstintingly
A generous person shares what they have willingly. It might be a cupcake or their time--either way, they're happy to share.

15. gregarious

  • temperamentally seeking and enjoying the company of others
Gregarious people are fun to be around and they like being around other people. They are the "life of the party."

16. impartial
  • free from undue bias or preconceived opinions
Impartial people are fair. They are able to remain neutral before forming an opinion. Lawyers like to have impartial people on juries so that they can fairly weight the evidence.

17. intuitive
  • obtained through instinctive knowledge
An intuitive person operates by instinct. They sort of have a special feel for a situation. The best basketball players are intuitive when it comes to finding the open teammate.

A lot of teaching is intuitive--the best teachers just know how to present things so that kids understand. (Related words: intuition and intuitively).

18. inventive
  • marked by independence and creativity in thought or action
Since the band's drummer did not show up for the concert, they got inventive--they asked members of the audience to come up and clap and play tambourines.
Inventive people are able to find creative, ingenious solutions to problems. They might be able to repair a car with a paper clip.

One of my favorite quotes is by Benjamin Franklin: "Necessity is the mother of invention." In other words, when there is a strong need, an invention to fill that need usually occurs.

19. passionate

  • having or expressing strong emotions
Passionate people have a real love for something in their life. They embrace this or many activities with a strong feeling. What are you passionate about?

20. persistent
  • stubbornly unyielding
Persistent people never give up. Even when the odds are stacked against them, the work tirelessly until the goal is achieved.

21. philosophical
  • meeting trouble with level-headed detachment
People who are philosophical often wonder, "In the grand scheme of things, is it worth it?" Philosophical people tend to look at the larger picture of life and stay above trivial situations.

When teaching it is important to remain philosophical about a student's success. A teacher has a large part to play in a student's success, but ultimately I cannot "make" him learn. Actually learning something is up to him.

22. practical

  • guided by experience and observation rather than theory
People who are practical look at things in a reasonable, level-headed way. They are likely to take a coat with them in case it is cold--they know they can take it off if it is too hot--they're just practical.

23. rational

  • having its source in or being guided by the intellect
Rational people are practical. They make rational decisions based on their logical reasoning about a situation. They don't base decisions on emotions.

24. reliable
  • worthy of trust
Someone who is reliable is trust worthy and dependable. You can "count on" a reliable person.

25. resourceful
  • adroit or imaginative
A resourceful person uses creativity and the things around them to tackle a problem. They see solutions (sometimes obvious ones) that others don't see.

26. sensible
  • able to feel or perceive
A sensible person is a clear thinking, reasonable person.

27. sincere
  • open and genuine; not deceitful
A sincere person is honest in their feelings toward others. (Antonym: insincerely).

28. sympathetic

  • expressing compassion or friendly fellow feelings
You are sympathetic when you feel sorry for someone else. You send a sympathy card when a friend loses a loved one because you want her to know that you feel sorry for her loss.

Their loss upsets you because you are sympathetic.

29. unassuming
  • not arrogant
An unassuming person is awesome but does not go around bragging about it. In fact, she might not even know that she's so awesome. A girl might be a great artist, but is unassuming about her skill.

30. witty
  • combining clever conception and facetious expression
Someone who is witty combines humor with intelligence. A witty observation is funny but also sophisticated. You need to be smart to understand a witty person's jokes.



Sunday 5 November 2017

Music : "The Entertainer", by Scott Joplin


Song : The Entertainer
Composer : Scott Joplin
Genre : Ragtime
Publisher : John Stark & Son
Published : 1902
Duration : 3m 53sec

I ASSUME that everyone must have heard of this song at least once in his life.
It may be from a street, TV commercial, drama, films, etc as theme music.
So have I, and had no idea of what title it is like everyone else.

TODAY, one Youtube video came across me while I was going through a numerous recommended sections.

THIS is a piano-comedy by Victor Borge whom wasn't in my knowledge until then.
His performance is impressive and it is also fun to watch.


Book Review : 'The Sense of an Ending', by JULIAN BARNES


BOOK : The Sense of an Ending
WRITER : Julian Barnes 
MAIN CHARACTERS :
Tony Webster(Anthony) as narrator
Adrian Finn as Tony's friend
Veronica as Tony's girl friend
Sarah as Veronica's mother

Location of purchase : Kyobo Bookstore in Gwang Hwa Moon
Date of Reading : Saturday, 04th November, 2017

review by Sohn Min Suk

NOTE : There are some spoilers. If you don't want to know them, please go back.

THE cover image above is the same as what I have and finished reading yesterday.

THIS book is particularly difficult for me to judge whether it is good or bad.
One thing clear is I fairly enjoyed reading it.

I BELIEVED that I am one of the cleverest readers who understand well the intentions and hints by writers until the book's ending. Not only was I clueless, but also could not fully comprehend it when it ended. Oh God, I did not see that coming. It was clever.

NOW I began to re-read the book, and noticed the implications of each word and sentence.
The author indeed gave us many hints. Tony Webster or Anthony, a narrator, mentions
'what you end up remembering isn't always the same as what you have witnessed.'

AS the reader goes through each page, they perceive that Tony's stories prove to be more than imperfect. Rather delusive. I felt almost betrayed when his story he told the reader started to be completely wrong and sometimes the opposite.

Tony created his own version of memory to protect himself from pain and shame. Adrian, rational and a philosopher, took his life rather than deceiving himself.

THE author keeps reminding the reader of characteristics of history.
'History is that certainty produced at the point where the imperfections of memory meet the inadequacies of documentation.'

'HISTORY is also the self-delusions of the defeated'.
IF the reader sympathized with Tony accusing Veronica of  her manipulation during Chapter 1,
Chapter 2 starts to indicate a different version of events by Tony himself.

TRUTHS uncovered at Chapter 2.
Veronica was not at all manipulating, but rather devoted and dedicated.
There was indeed a damage done to Veronica, defensive and doubtful, but it was by her mother.
It was Sarah who is manipulating, seductive, and dishonest.
The old Tony confirms the real version of Veronica as his new memories begin to emerge.
' - ' << I will mention later various verification about Veronica after finished re-reading it.
Also the author himself indicates Veronica's 40 years of support and dedication for Adrian Jr. who is mentally challenged.

BOTH Tony and Adrian had numerous sexual intercourse with Sarah.
Adrian confirms that in his diary.
Tony in several indications :

"I waved goodbye, and she responded, though not the way people normally do, with a raised palm, but with a sort of horizontal gesture at waist level."

'After broke up, she slept with me.'
Tony, of course, refers this to Veronica.
But, the reader is provided with further implication that the female partner is a experienced woman skilled at rolling a condom on to his cock. It was Sarah, Veronica's mother.

ADRIAN committed suicide from a unforgivable shame of having an affair with the mother of his girlfriend and a possibility that he might be the one who got Sarah pregnant.

MEANWHILE, Tony, "who avoided being hurt and called it a capacity for survival", conveniently replaced Sarah with Veronica and repressed the memories associated with it.

EQUATIONS in Adrian's diary are, in reality, to be :
b = Baby
a1 = Adrian
a2 = Anthony
s = Sarah
v = Veronica
And the right equation is to be 'a2 + s - a1 - v = b'

"The Sense of an Ending", from Adrian's diary is,
"So, for instance, if Tony" : is the father of Sarah's child.
The reader can finally assume that Tony cannot possibly bring himself up to the monstrous truth that the Tony himself, in actuality, had fathered Adrian Jr.















Thursday 2 November 2017

The Fortress : Korean movie review.


Actor :
Lee Byung Hun as Choi Myung Gil
Kim Yoon Seok as Kim Sang Hun
Park Hae Il       as King Injo
Go Soo               as Seo Nal Soi
Park Hee Soon  as Lee Shi Baek

Cinema : Lotte Cinema
Location : Kun-kook university

EVENING, Wednesday, 2nd November, 2017,
I went to the cinema to watch this film.

IT started at 22:40 and ended at 01:00(+1 day).

THE film started with a scene in which Sang Hun and an old man walks along in snowy river.
A heavy snow falls on them.
This old man is guiding Sang Hun to The Fortress.
The old man says he is only left with a little girl, and he will guide the Qing for a small amount of food. Sang Hun thanks him for guiding. And kills him.

FROM this scene, an audience would notice the characteristics of Kim Sang Hun.
Principle, Loyalty, and Faithfulness to Joseon Dynasty.

MYUNG Gil is equally faithful to Joseon.
But, his principle is different from that of Sang Hun, which makes they argue all along during the entire time of movie. And it is absolutely fascinating.

I COULD feel their affection and love for their country and people, and they are the only people who actually cares in the movie.

IT feels that something is missing in the movie, but I couldn't find what it is.
Acting of Lee Byung Hun and Kim Yoon Suk make this film worth watching.
And supporting actors and actresses.
Except this there is not something special about this movie.

CONCLUSION.
Lee Byung Hun is a great actor.
His acting is always mesmerizing.